Walk into the pale night

"Think not disdainfully of death, but look on it with favor; for even death is one of the things that Nature wills"
Marcus Aurelius Antoninus (121 AD - 180 AD)


Why is death such a horrible thing to think of? Last year I had two deaths in my family, and I do not feel any different. I have met people that are almost crippled by the fear of the end coming.

What about my children? My job? Everyone else in the world who has ever met me?
None of these things really matter -- when you pass on people will miss you, they will speak of the good times because we wish to forget the bad. Some will mourn for a long time, others will carry on with life as though nothing has changed.

When I was young I came to a conclusion that they say all warriors do. Today may be the last time I step onto the field of battle. It never really worried me, in some ways I was always prepared. Others do not see it this way. People are amazing creatures, we worry about things that no other animal in the world does.

I am as curious as anyone else about what may be waiting for us in the next world if there so is one. Every civilization has believed something different about what will happen to us in the end, seems the modern day western thinking is you are worm food. Scientifically its true, but what about your spirit? For me I believe long after I have left this mortal plane my spirit will carry on in those that knew me, and those who come to experience what I experienced.

There is no reason to fear death everyone, its an inevitability which we cannot control. Like Marcus Aurelius Antoninus said its natures will.

White Knight,

Ancient walls crumble over time

I use to be the master of control. If the entire world was falling apart, simply turn to the White Knight he can take it. For years it was true; but now it feels as though everything is slipping, my grip is weakening, my spirit cannot take much more.

Life feels like a nightmare that never seems to end. My place in the universe has been dissolved and everything I have come to follow is being washed away.
I have braced the pressures of a thousand on the shoulders of one. Kept my emotions locked away to better help everyone, now it feels as though there is nobody to lean on --- All my friends have told me they are there for me but it doesn't feel real.

Somewhere it all went wrong, I just don't know where. Perhaps life is as I have seen it become, nothing more then smoke and mirrors.

White Knight,

Nature vs. Luxury?

I was watching CSI the other night and saw a really cool view of Las Vegas. What it made me think of was how unnatural a hotel room is.
Most of my experience is from vacations in expensive rooms; what can I say I like to live large. When I was thinking about it I realized that the windows do not open and the room has almost a creepy feeling to it. I really don't know how some people do it; those who are always on the road for work.

I could live in the woods forever, nature is a place where I can go to recharge... But hotels, well its just unnatural.

White Knight,

Olympic Champions

So the Canadian women's Hockey Team took the gold medal in a 4-1 showdown against Sweden. All I can say is that it was an incredible match; both teams did amazingly well and I hope to see them both again in the gold medal match in Vancouver 2010.

White Knight,

My Dream - Aston Martin DB7

Aston Martin. Maker of only great luxury cars. That's what most people thought when someone said "Aston Martin." The DB7 is the car that has certainly changed all that.

The Aston Martin DB7 is one of the most beautiful cars that we have ever seen. It's a great sports car, yet still follows the Aston Martin tradition of luxury with a powerful V6 engine, leather interior, and heated seats.

The smooth, sleek curves on this car are just perfect, giving the car less drag, and more style! The Inline 6-cylinder powerplant gives this car superb speed, with a top speed of 171 mph. It also gives the DB7 great acceleration and power, going from 0 to 60 mph in just 5.4 seconds!

This vehicle is simply perfect in every way - this is the dream.

Words From The Lost

I have walked in the face of danger, and fought beside those who call themselves heroes. Been beaten and scared in the name of my beliefs and in the name of family. My honor has been tarnished my loyalty shaken, yet I remain strong against all adversity.

I have seen things people could not begin to comprehend, sights that I myself do not believe.

I have trekked through the swamps of the human mind, both my own and others. Looked into the souls of people who were afraid to speak the truth. Journeyed past hatred, bias and unwanted passion. You have seen me near and far, spoken to me kicked me mocked me from a far.

I continue to stand strong against all who oppresses me, for who am I. I am the lost, the forgotten; I am those who are in the undying darkness, and those standing in the unquenchable light.

Peer Pressure.

Friends are suppose to be people who stand by you no matter how stupid your actions are. Why is it when it comes to relationships they decide that they need to interfere with things? This directly effects me and if anything I should be glad the peer pressure is there but I'm not.
I only want this young lady to be happy, I do not want her to be with me because her friends think its the better option. Not really sure if I have a point here but I will say this - If you want to do your job as a friend then you should let your companions mess up.

White Knight,

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Second Level of Hell!

You have come to a place mute of all light, where the wind bellows as the sea does in a tempest. This is the realm where the lustful spend eternity. Here, sinners are blown around endlessly by the unforgiving winds of unquenchable desire as punishment for their transgressions. The infernal hurricane that never rests hurtles the spirits onward in its rapine, whirling them round, and smiting, it molests them. You have betrayed reason at the behest of your appetite for pleasure, and so here you are doomed to remain. Cleopatra and Helen of Troy are two that share in your fate.

Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Extreme
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

Super Powers - Good Vs. Evil

We were sitting in Gulag this past evening and the topic of super powers came up. Almost everyone out there has a favorite super hero, but how many of us have really thought about what power we would take if granted only one.

I took psychokinesis because it would be super cool to move things with my mind. The amount of fun you could have is remarkable. Little 'C' choose flight and Big Adam went with telepathy. Seems pretty straight forward for most of us; the idea that was most intriguing was that the power you chose says something about your personality.

NAME	POWER	PERSONALITY
White Knight	Psychokinesis	Control Freak
Little 'C'	Flight	Free Spirit
Big Adam	Telepathy	Delusional Madman

What about the other powers out there?
Invisibility, Time Travel, Clairvoyance, Teleportation. What do these powers if chosen say about that person, and would you use them for good or for evil?

White Knight,

What if life were like D&D?

We were walking through the park the other day and started talking about life if it were D&D. Trekking through the snowy trail we came to a deadend; I looked at our fearless ninja and said

"way to go fearless tracker"
"I am sneaky, not a ranger"
"hmm should have brought a ranger along"

Kids we later saw were halflings, we were prepared for battle at every turn. -- Quick roll initiative.
"Oh no I rolled a 1 I am going last"

Its an odd concept I will agree to that; but when you have been playing as long as I have everything looks like D&D.

White Knight &
Crystal the Mighty, Destroyer of Worlds,

Wicked be motivated by The Fates.

Is there such a thing as the three fates? I don't know for sure, but sometimes it feels as though there is. You ladies have given me some up and some downs, kicked me when I was trying to get up; but for that I thank you.

I have met a wonderful girl who makes me very happy, something I have not felt for some time now. She has made a more positive person in the short time we have spent together and motivated me to chase that proverbial dream.

I am not going to jump the gun or anything but I believe the three fates are going to be kind to me this time. True happiness is not something everyone will find in their lives but should continue to quest for. The parties will change but the quest shall always be the same.

White Knight,

Art of the Vigilante.

So here is something I have been thinking about for awhile. What is the difference between a vigilante and a police officer. I can only see two differences, a badge and restraint. Police in the world capture criminals everyday which is great; they are then processed through the justice system as flawed as it may be.

The holes come in when a rapist for example can get away on reasonable doubt. When you see the victim can you still see reasonable doubt? I have known many women who have been raped or sexually assaulted and nothing has ever happened to the criminal. If we followed the art of the vigilante then something would have happened. The bastard who did it would be beaten beyond believe or possibly killed; is this a bad thing? Well it depends on how you look at it, on one hand you are breaking the greatest morals of society while on the other hand you have removed a threat from your community and taken vengeance as it was once seen in Babylon.

I am not saying that everyone should run outside and go on a rampage, but what I am saying is maybe its time for someone to stand up for the silent out there. If you want to lie, cheat or steal that is fine, do what you need to do to survive in the world. But as far as I am concerned you never rape and you never kill -- these are the rules.

White Knight,